Sometimes I get a feeling of how blessed I really should feel. Sadly enough these feelings and thoughts only comes into mind when I see someone who’s less fortune than I am. I mean, I feel thankful for my sight when I say a person who’s lost their sight. I feel thankful for the fact that I can stand steady flawlessly with my two legs, when I see a person who has difficulty walking (or maybe doesn’t even have any legs!). I feel thankfulness towards my supportive family when I see a person whose parents aren’t supportive.
I have everything I need.
Everything and so much more.
More than I deserve.
After all of these blessings that Allah (swt) granted me with, without me even asking for them, I still somehow complain about life being hard.I complain about how tough my studies are. I complain about how much I hate doing the dishes and vacuum.. I complain about how hurt I am from other people, I complain about having anxiety and not being happy 24/7.
This is all so pointless. I am the master of my life, and these are all things that I can change. So what if I’m hurt? I can live with that. But what if I’d lose my both legs? Would I have the power to change that? If I wouldn’t have any sight; would I have the power to gain my sight back? If I wouldn’t have a family.. How in the world would I get a family who’d love me and call me at nights if I still hadn’t arrived home? You see, when someone calls you and asks you when you’re coming home; that is a countless blessing itself that you will never be able to understand until you have your own kids.
Now when I think about it this way, I feel so ashamed over myself. We are so ungrateful for the things that actually matter. We’re so hung up on the details that we’ve forgotten about the whole picture.
So what if someone hurt me So what if I don’t feel happy all the time.. I can live with that. But would I have the strength to carry on living in this world if I wouldn’t even have the sight to view the world with my eyes?
We take things for granted. We don’t know, and we will never know their value until we lose them.
“And He gives you all that you ask for. But if you count the favors of Allah, never will you be able to number them. Verily, man is given up to injustice and ingratitude.” [Quran 14:34]